Lonely

Hmm...what do I think in this moment...how I feel right now...well, I feel like I've been thrown into a hole and now I'm covered with dirt and can't breath. My heart is sore and not because it has been messed around with. I feel lonely and like always the factor that makes this happen is...family. Parents are a long, long subject to talk about but sometimes they are just too much; they cross the line and you, as a teenager, come to your limit. Patience has never been my forte point but I'm trying. My parents found a hobby out of making me feel lonely and breaking my patience every single time. I got to the point where I want to get out, to leave the house and never come back. I'm waiting for that moment for a while now...I haven't been to my friends' concert in a while, hell I haven't seen my friends in a while. I feel like I became virtual because I talk with them just on internet and not anymore face to face. I feel like I'm drowning in my own misery and maybe I'm selfish but they should suffer out of that too. It's not fair to be the only one. And they don't even realize what they're doing to me. Sometimes I ask myself if they care at all...Sometimes I ask myself if anyone cares, at least a tiny bit, what I want and what I need...